I thought it would be important to share a brief snippet of my story. Being comfortable in my skin and loving myself is always something I struggled with. For years, I battled anorexia. It consumed my life and is still a daily battle. No one ever wants to hear of a skinny girl’s struggle but eating disorders are real and all consuming. I was bullied a lot in high school over my eating disorder and constantly called ugly and bullied which just fed into it even more. I got to a point where if I ate, I would punish myself with self mutilation. I obsessed over calorie counting that it controlled my life even into my first pregnancy. The residual effects of it still haunt me, I’m an extremely picky eater and sometimes just looking at food makes me physically ill. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve heard “you need to eat a burger” to someone who is struggling, that’s not okay. And if you look at my pictures, I have a lot of scars. At 19, I started battling different stages and forms of skin cancers, my last surgery was this past summer. The eating disorder, the cutting, the scars and cancers plus the fact I carried three babies had really taken a toll on my body and my self esteem, but I think it’s important to understand that you are only given one body in this life, and you have to embrace it and love it. And hopefully through my story, I can inspire others to battle through their demons and start to love their bodies too. Did anything change about how you see yourself? For the first time in years, I felt like my own person again. Being a housewife and mom of three (2 of which are really little), I feel so consumed in doing everything for everyone else that doing something for myself made me feel like a person again! And that I am more than just a mom and wife. What was your initial reaction to the images? At first, it was awkward seeing pictures of me like that. I’m not a sexy person at all, I’m actually a pretty big dork that loves to laugh so seeing a sexy, sultry side of me photographed was different but in a good way. Katie did an awesome job making me look hott. I loved the images and couldn’t wait to send them to my husband. How did you feel before your session? What were you most nervous about? I felt anxious before. I was nervous about being the worst “model” Katie would ever have, worried about not knowing what to do and super worried about the reaction from my husband. Any advice for others looking to do a shoot?
Just have fun with it! Browse Pinterest and get ideas of what you’re looking to do first. Katie is awesome at bringing ideas to life. It really is a lot of fun and a totally comfortable environment.
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In 2005 I was 23 with a 1 yr old and a 3yr old. It was St. Patrick day I worked almost all day. On my way home for the evening I was on route 8 south 2 exits from home...and someone hit me. I was in the center lane on the phone with my babysitter letting them know I was almost home. Whoever hit me kept on driving...left me for dead. My car went out of control hit the middle concrete divider 9 times sorta just ricocheted. Some passerby did call 911 and thank God they did. They had to give me a tracheotomy on the side of the highway so I could breathe. I was in ICU for 6 week's. I shattered the whole left side of my face, my nose, shattered my jaws, lost my left eye and broke my collarbone in 6 spots.I have had probably close to 32 surgeries on my face and eye. I didn't get to see my kids for months because I wouldn't let them come to the hospital and see me like that. My jaws were wired shut for 6 to 7 months. I literally felt like I was in hell. I went through severe depression thinking I was ugly and learning how to be half-blind. But then I learned to accept myself. A lot of that comes from my kids. I had a fake eye I tried it out for a few years, my kids hated it. They said nothing about me is fake and if people don't like the way I look, they don't have to look at me. So here I am. A single mom, 35 years old with a 16 year old son and 14 year old daughter who are amazing. I love myself and I love them. I'm here and I'm so thankful to have the life I have so I can watch my babies grow. How did you feel before your session? What were you most nervous about? I was extremely nervous. I talked to my best friend the whole ride there. I would say I was most nervous about my face being that I look different than everybody else. What was your initial reaction to the images? I was completely shocked, I didn't believe it was myself. Were you happy with your hair/makeup? Why/Why not? My hair and makeup looked amazing. With my face being different makeup is actually a hard thing for me. But she listen to exactly what I wanted and what I needed for my face not to look lopsided even more. Did anything change about how you see yourself? Yes, I guess we all have this view on how we think we look. But to be able to look at yourself from the outside on how other people see you makes you step back and have a different perspective. Any advice for others looking to do a shoot?
Don't think about it. Just do it. It's completely worth it. Miss D was a little late for her session, so our hair/makeup artist kicked booty and got her glamed up in no time. She was pretty nervous since she didn't have as much time as other girl have to warm up while they get their pamper on.. But she KILLED her session. She is gorgeous! I'm excited to share her photos with you, and some of her words about her experience.. What was your favorite part of the entire boudoir experience? The feeling I get when I see my photos each time. I was in the new studio and while getting my makeup done besides thinking how kind and understanding everyone was, I thought —-WOW what an empowering thing for woman :) Katie is a genius!! How did you feel after your session? So relieved that I had it in me to go through with it. More comfortable in my skin since I can remember, confident that my husband and I were going to love this project. Mostly though very impressed of Katie who never batted an eye when I ran late, who juggled kids and work seamlessly that afternoon and the whole while was incredibly under the weather. She kept a smile on and nailed it all anyway. We woman often do that in our lives. Sometimes it’s nice to have a reminder that struggle is not yours to bear alone. Woman should be doing more to lift one another up. Katie definitely does that. Did anything change about how you see yourself? Volumes. There isn’t just one thing and sometimes it still seems like I’m looking at someone else. We woman get so used to how we see ourselves or how we’re thought to see ourselves throughout our life, at it can be quite a shock to have that changed for you. Any advice for others looking to do a shoot?
The feelings are real, apprehension, not attractive enough, shy, scared, not in the budget right now (I let that one be my excuse for a year)! This is an invaluable experience . At the end of the day you can’t buy self confidence but you can definitely ask for some help getting there. This was that help for me. I think everyone deserves to have this experience at least once. |